this will be the only time i bring this up i'm certainty not going to be down in the dumps when i stream or upload videos even before i transitioned to v-tubing i hated that I deal with on and off episodes of heavy depression i'm not quite young but i'm not a typical adult nearing his 40's either moderately disabled all the friends i grew up with have settled down and married and though its not often for now i am back at home with a mom who occasionally hits me its very demeaning am I v-tubing as escapism fuck yes but if i didn't try to play a happier version of myself I would not be here